Book of the month: Surrounded by idiots.

I’m reading a book called “Omgiven av Idioter” by Thomas Erikson. The title direcly translates to “Surrounded by idiots”.
It’s an easy version of complicated pshychology, that explain how different people work and how to handle them.
In the book there is 4 categories. Red, yellow, blue and green. Each color represents a person and their personality.
The moment I read the first page it captured me.
The colors.
Red: Dominance. Ambitious, courius, driven, impatient, direct.
Yellow: Inspiring. Emotional, creative, spontanious, optimistic, empathic.
Green: Stability. Loyal, helpful, friendly, careful, attentive.
Blue: Analyical. Logic, careful, structured, objective, distanced.
These are only a few of the typical traits for each color.
Most people are green and/or a mix of colors.
I’m yellow and green. When I’m not in my illness and it doesn’t take over I’m a very happy, optimistic, creative, open, outgoing etc. which are typical for a yellow person. I’m loyal, helpful, friendly, suppotive, considerate etc. which are typical for a green person.
I have my illness and it takes over and my emotions take over so I can’t think or act clear like I usually do, but when I’m good and feel good it’s obvious that I’m yellow and green. I act on emotion without a thought behind it.
I’m not done with the book but I love it and I recommed everyone to read it, not only will you understand others but also yourself. Plus it’s a good way to spend some time. But take you time, don’t go though it too fast, let the words sink in and if you want to you can do like me, I have a green marker that I mark things that I feel are important. Works for me.
Good luck.

Lecture.

The plan is that I am going to start lecturing about mental health in late August or early Septemeber. I thought I’d walk you through my plan, I’m not done with it but any how, I’m publishing it officially e here.
Please enjoy and leave your thoughts.

My reason for lecturing:
I have many reasons actually. I want to help people that’s suffering or knows someone that’s suffeing because of their mental health, which also means I want to reach out to the world letting them know that they are not alone. If I help one person they can help another and so on, in the same time it’s a way for me to deal with my past and trauma and such. I also want to spread knowledge and understanding about people’s mental health.

Who I am:
After introducing my lecture I’ll move on to who I am. My name, age, where I’m from, my intrests. My goals in life etc.

What I’ve been through:
On this subject I’ll talk about things that made me who I am, what I’ve been through. Trauma, medical history, my relationship with my parents etc.

Reason behind my mental health:
Here I’ll go more into what caused my mental problems, what caused my diagnosis.

My turn in life:
This one is the most important to me of what I’m going to talk about. Music, more specific Green Day. How they changed my life, how they opened my eyes, ears, heart, feelings and made me realized that what was going on was far from ok. On this subject I’ll talk about what music can do for you, in many possible ways, but mostly I’ll talk about Green Day. Also I’ll talk about how I found God, just it isn’t the main point here.

Selfharm and suicide attempts:
About this I’m going to talk about my selfharm and over a 100 suicide attempts. I’m not going to much about how and what I’ve done to myself but I’m going to talk about why. Drugs, alcohol is going to be brought up here as well.

Friends and family’s reaction:
This one speaks for it self. I’m going to talk about how the people near me has reacted.

My health today:
Sure it still goes up and down, with my diagnosis that’s the only way it goes, but I know who I am, how I work and what I’m like when I have my good periods. This subject will be about focusing on the good things in my life.

If others need help:
This one is the last. I will talk about what you can do for someone who is depressed etc, the signs and my own experience with people around me suffering because of their mental health.

After this I’ll leae information where they can get a hold of me.

All these are really important, both to me and others.
And of course it will be a trigger warning before I begin.

Leave a comment or contact me on mail/social media if there’s any questions or something you think I should talk about. That includes your own experience if you want to, I can’t promise that it will come up, but I’ll have it in mind.

Thank you.

Good Morning Mr.

Well I haven’t blogged in a few days and I am very aware of it.

I just wanted to let you know that at the moment I am not doing so good, physocally or mentally. I have been in contact with a doctor who I am seeing on Thursday and I am going on my theraphy every Tuesday and Thursday.

But I have wanted to tell you something.
There is a woman and her son that comes to church once in a while. They are both very amazing.
Eight years ago when her son was on his way to school he met some other kids and they beat him up which resulted in a severe brain injury. He eats a lot of medicine at the moment and his mother feels like it changes him for the worse.
I told them that I will help them anyway I can and because she finds it hard to go places with him because people don’t understand, I told her I can go do things with them if they want to.

I am really worried about them and they are lovely people, I care a lot about them.
So besides my own bad health this is where my energy goes.

I really hope I can do some good for them.
They really need it, so if you have any advice please share them!

Thank you.