Green Day – Still Breathing

I’m like a child looking off on the horizon
I’m like an ambulance that’s turning on the sirens
Oh, I’m still alive
I’m like a soldier coming home for the first time
I dodged a bullet and I walked across a landmine
Oh, I’m still alive

Am I bleeding am I bleeding from the storm?
Just shine a light into the wreckage, so far away, away

‘Cause I’m still breathing
‘Cause I’m still breathing on my own
My head’s above the rain and roses
Making my way away
‘Cause I’m still breathing
‘Cause I’m still breathing on my own
My head’s above the rain and roses
Making my way away
My way to you

I’m like a junkie tying off for the last time
I’m like a loser that’s betting on his last dime
Oh, I’m still alive
I’m like a son that was raised without a father
I’m like a mother barely keeping it together
Oh, I’m still alive

Am I bleeding, am I bleeding from the storm?
Just shine a light into the wreckage, so far away, away

‘Cause I’m still breathing
‘Cause I’m still breathing on my own
My head’s above the rain and roses
Making my way away
‘Cause I’m still breathing
‘Cause I’m still breathing on my own
My head’s above the rain and roses
Making my way, away, away

As I walked out on the ledge
Are you scared to death to live?
I’ve been running all my life
Just to find a home that’s for the restless
And the truth that’s in the message
Making my way, away, away

‘Cause I’m still breathing
‘Cause I’m still breathing on my own
My head’s above the rain and roses
Making my way away
‘Cause I’m still breathing
‘Cause I’m still breathing on my own
My head’s above the rain and roses
Making my way, away, away
‘Cause I’m still breathing
‘Cause I’m still breathing on my own
My head’s above the rain and roses
Making my way, away
My way to you

Words to a beautiful soul.

We said goodbye to your beautiful soul
A woman so strong, a woman so loved
Memories we made, will be kept close at hand
Such a beautiful soul unlike no other

I hope you rest in peace, an eternal sleep
All the smiles you brought us
Your joy and energy, will never be forgotten
These words I dedicate to you
Beautiful memories, important forever

The loss is heart breaking,
Watching through another’s eyes
Prayers for your family
In my thoughts you live

I hope you rest in peace, an eternal sleep
All the smiles you brought us
Your joy and energy, will never be forgotten
These words I dedicate to you
Beautiful memories, important forever

I don’t know why this kind of faith was meant for you,
It seems so unfair, another loss to bear
Your memory remains, close at heart
One day it will be OK,
I can’t wait until we meet again.

The whispering of the snake.

On the brink of destruction
Heading down a dangerous path
The point of no return
Where it’s all too late

We haven’t all been there,
Neither we shall
There’s got to be a way,
So deeply hidden
I’m done wasting time,
But I can’t do this alone

Turn away,
See the danger signs,
This is no path to follow,
But there is no way out,
The lights went out,
Fumbling in the dark,
So help me,
To turn away from the dark,
Shut down the whispers of the snake

So far away,
From myself,
And everyone I hold dear

All I see,
All I hear,
All I know,
Is how to end it all

Shut off the whispers,
Take me into the light,
Carry me trough the night,
‘Cause I can’t do this all by myself
I’m not strong enough to walk,
So hear my whispering,
So hear my crying,
And wipe my tears,

Turn away,
See the danger signs,
This is no path to follow,
But there is no way out,
The lights went out,
Fumbling in the dark,
So help me,
To turn away from the dark,
Shut down the whispers of the snake

Spinning out of control again,
So help me to turn away from the whispering of the snake,
Lead me unto wisdom,
Lead me off this dangerous path,
That I’ve ridden for so long

Bury the lies.

Did you know that most of the “headlines” are from different songs and albums?

Bury the lies is an album from a Swedish band called Takida.
Run, run away. Run, run along is from Takida’s song Swallow.
Dear God, a song by Avenged Sevenfold.
Gypsy Heart, an album by Colbie Caillat.
Rain, a song by Mika.
This is me, a part of Bryan Adams song Here I am.

Most of my life is inspired by music, but I can’t write if it isn’t personal to me.
It doesn’t matter if it’s a poem, a song, a story or here at my blog, I can’t write if I can’t feel it, and in order for me to feel it… It needs to mean something to me, it needs to be personal.
If there is something I want to write about and that I can’t I need to make it personal. I need to make myself feel it, which is not a problem, considering.

I care about people around me. I may say things and do things that I don’t mean, that might hurt, but it doesn’t happen because I want to harm anyone, it happens because I want the best, and there might be a misunderstanding or I just simply let my feelings get in the way so they take control.

I never forget some of all the bad things that have happened because of me and a stupid mistake, or a stupid fight, and I NEVER forgive myself for it.
I believe that in a fight, everyone that’s is involved is equal to blame. No matter who said what and who did what. If you feed the rage instead of ignoring it you are involved and you haven’t made the situation better.
We might not always understand what other’s are trying to do, or say. We might never understand why people act the way they do, and we might never know the truth.
We might think that people have done things that they actually haven’t, and we might never get to realize that we were wrong about them.
In a fight between two people no one stands alone behind the problem. A relationship is always between two people, no matter if you are a group of five, and when something happens, we humans are experts at getting involved where we don’t belong. Which causes even more misunderstanding and the situation often get out of control.

I have said things, I have done things that hurt. Words and actions I don’t mean.
But because I have not been able to leave and more people got involved it often got out of hand.

I am not taking the blame for these things anymore.
Things I haven’t done, but people are so sure I have, it’s their problem not mine.
I told them the truth and they didn’t believe me.
I have apologized for what I have said and for what I haven’t.
I have apologized for what I done and for what I haven’t.

I am not the person to blame, and if you feel like blaming someone, have you wonder why it ever happened to you? Have you looked at what you said and what you done?
If it’s something I said or did, have you thought about what you put me through? 

I am not taking the blame anymore.
I am a person so beat down because of people’s words and actions.
I am trough, I am done with this.
It’s time for me to gain self-confidence, it’s time for me to become a person.
I will have to find a way for my past, and all this insecurity and self-blame, I will find a way for me to become the person I want to be. It’s time for me to be who I was meant to be.

It’s time to bury the lies, it’s time to move on.