My baby has arrived!!!

My new Epiphone bass guitar has arrived. She arrived a few days ago and I picked her up yesterday.

You can also follow me on instagram to follow my battle with mental health.

My BIG decision!

This is the biggeat decision of my life.

I’m going to turn this trend around, this trend of dwelling in my mental health. It’s time for a change, it’s time for the way forward.

I will post my journey on instagram @shadowanie

Enjoy! XO

Chester Bennington

I’m watching a video from Chester Bennington’s last live show.

His eyes are empty. He doesn’t have as much eye contact with his fans as much as he used to. At the end he thanked his fans, but you could still see it on him that everything wasn’t ok.

How could people not see his signs?

Dream

I had such a intense dream a few days ago.

I was at a meeting with a doctor on call. She didn’t want to hospitalize me. So I told her that I was going to take my life, she told me to go ahead. I ledt without my stuff.

I hurried away from there, I walked far until I found a bridge. Close to the bridge there was some kind of cable. I took the cable and I made a hangmans knot, a snare.

I put the snare around my neck and tied the cable to the bridge.

I sat there on the bridge for a while rethinking my choice.

After a while the cops came and they stopped me, but I was trying to get of the bridge with the snare around my throat. They stopped me and held me tight so I couldn’t jump.

They took me to the hospital and left me and my friend in a room. As soon as one of the cops left the room I opened the door and I ran tried to run away from the hospital.

I ran as fast as I could but the cop was chasing me together with a personnel from the psychiatric care. I ran out of the ward and eventually I got outside, but they caught up to me and brought me back to the hospital.

Collab?

My blog is currently a work in progress, I’m working with the layout and design. A collab is also coming! Hope you are as excited as I am!